Behind sad eyes...........

As my fiend Paula and I walked up to the Private Dancer last week, I got that sick feeling I always get. I wondered what i might see on the other side of the entrance. The smell of smoke and the filth in the entrance always makes me a little apprehensive. Poor Paula, having no idea what to expect, handled it with such grace as she fervently prayed for the girls. As we prayed in our prayer languages, I rang the bell at the glass window and waited.

Two precious girls excited to see me came to the window and said, "Hello Rochelle!!" When i look in their eyes i can see the intense pain on their faces. It crumbles my soul as I put a smile on my face in hopes that they will see Jesus. They leaned over the opening of the window to hug me. I didn't want to let go. My insides torn as the Lord opened their hearts so i could hold them for a short time. Its amazing that after such a short time they are hugging me....really it is. Its a gift from the Lord. I prayed for each of them and gave them gift.



As i was praying, a man came in the doorway. That was a first. I was so shocked when the girl I was praying for said, " You need to come back because we are busy right now." I acted like I wasn't surprised and excited! I was ready to bust! Only Jesus could make them more interested in what i had to say then the money. That is a miracle! Go Jesus!



As i was leaving one of the girls handed me her prayer request and this is what it said:

Rochelle,
I have been clean since the first time you came to our building. You have touched my heart in a way no one else ever has. I would like for you to pray for me and help me stay clean and do better. Also pray for everyone that is doing your ministry. Your the best.
Love,
L

God is good!!! Now that is something to get excited about!!

Does anybody hear her????

As i leave the strip clubs to minister on Friday night i always feel so empty but yet so excited. Looking in the eyes of someone lost, seeing the pain, the fear and the residue of abuse magnifies the stance of the enemy. They don't have any idea of how much God loves them. They have heard of religion or have been to a church where hymnals are open to page 144 and people sing of someone they don't really know. I pray, Lord show me the broken ones. Show me who is willing to hear your story. Show me the ones who are not. I know that you have called me to share what you have done. I lie in bed at night and see their faces. Some nights i toss and turn burdened over what I have seen. How did my heart get so hard that i got wrapped up in being someone in the church? We are to be servants. Plain in simple. You fed me, you gave me water, you came to see me when i was in jail, you loved the unlovable. Truly, Jesus ministry was out in the world. We are called to go out and spread the news of the kingdom. I can let my shine all day but if I am scared to tell somebody about the Kingdom who do i really want to please? He never said being used by Him would be easy

Our Lord took it all on Calvary. Everything. My sickness, my sadness, my addictions, my insecurities, my dads junk, and my grandparents junk. All of it gone within minutes. I get so excited about that! I have had people in the church who really know the Lord get annoyed with my enthusiasm. I used to be so hurt by that. The Lord told me that my excitement excites Him. I am not bragging about myself. I am bragging about my covenant that God Almighty died to give me! If that doesn't get you excited i am not the strange one here! We should be excited! We serve God almighty! Its too big of a deal to keep quiet. If your faith doesn't hurt just a little.......you might be a pew warmer! :)