Lord please show up tomorrow night...............

I can feel the inside of my chest beating if I think too much about tomorrow night. Four years ago the Lord spoke to me and I knew I was called to share my testimony. Listening, learning, watching and praying sometimes even dreaming of what that day would be like. God had stirred something in me that kept my eyes fixed on Him. The author and finisher of my faith.

Now after waiting and praying I wonder if it was all in my mind. Am i nuts? Me? I mean really Lord. I cry out for answers between homework and email and meetings. Is it even possible for him to use me? The older the kids get it seems the more tired I get. Maybe I am just suffering from a very serious love hangover......God I need you every moment to keep me sane. I don't want to try and be anybody I just want to please the Lord and lately i really don't know what that looks like.

Things in my life have been kind of nuts. I have felt scattered and tired and overwhelmed. The Lord told me that with Him nothing is impossible. He can help me to raise three great kids who love the Lord, use me for the sake of the Kingdom and give me the means to help others. That is all I really want. Maybe a home of my own.........................

So tomorrow night I will drive to that church and praise Him the whole way there scared but excited at the opportunity to share how much God loved me that He pulled me out of a place that was hollow and made me new and in one piece again.

Lord do it all..................I want to see your glory. I want to see you move mountains.......I want to see you open up the windows of heaven and set the captives free. Lord please move like never before. I need for you to show up tomorrow night Lord. I need you..................I love you. I am nothing without you.